Confession (dedicated to my mother)

I've been through relationships
but I've found the one
I just wanted to tell you
I'm in love
I know your're thinking
please be wise
Cuz mama I know
you've given birth to Pain
and you've married Time
and the last thing you wanna see
is a storm in your baby's eyes
I did not fall in love with a boy
I am in love with a man
that stands on two feet
and praises God with his hands
in my modesty he treats me like his hynesty
and his imperfections are perfect
just like Chris finding ways
to tell Shawntell
as a wife and a mother
she's always worth it
just like Thomas is proud
how strong Sally is able to life
two beautiful kids through natural birth
just how extravagant Keisha is
and in time she will find
that all of it will work
and Fernando, I'm sure has his own vices
took time out in his occupation
and tended to my car when it needed
restoration
this is a smiget of similes and metaphors
from my family that describe this man
I can be me I can do me
I yell out to the world
and in my dreams to the sand man
strong as an emperor
handy as a plumber
like a cat he lands on his feet
and bolts like thunder
sexy as the pecan praline
that I love to devour
and anything less than the truth
he makes perpetrators look like cowards
the romance is questionable
but he does have an ear to listen
is intrigued by my intelligence
and counts me as his mission
its crazy cuz
when I put two words together
that doesn't make sense
or when my explanation of my reasons
don't seem to fit
I think God made me this way
so that I could be with him
because he understands me in a way that
only God can explain
and I've never been able to write about this love
because this love I haven't obtain
There are four types of love in Greek
and mama your love I have always found
so before this man now
love was like a good movie with no sound
or a beautiful daughter no daddy around
or a fisherman going fishing and there are no fish
or the virtuous woman that society now calls bitch
mama I respect you, I'm sorry that I cursed
just expressing how that love before
appeared as a curse
because it was dressed in overalls and looked like work
but this man that I've found has given me purpose
I know you said
you don't need to no man to feel like you're worth it (change your voice) (pause)
but, this is the ultimate blessing
who is this man
taking my babies hand
is your ultimate question
and yes mama
he asked me to marry him
I haven't answered his question
I have to take it with caution
I don't want to be like Lucifer
and be the angel thats fallen
I wanna be like Jesus
stand firm even when tempted
because a marriage won't work
if the other party is slipping
to say I do to him
would be saying I do to God
and that can't be taken lightly
cuz to whom much is given (pause)
much is required
mama, imma be okay
our love will shelter each other
just stay by my side
and keep being my mother
I have a confession
This is my confession,
I am pregnant
and my child shall take the father's name
this is my decision, don't get serious
this isn't gender specific
as you view me, we are one in the same
wait mama!
there's more
hey hold up
don't go screaming out the door
this is only a metaphorically analogy I just poured
I apologize, I forgot to say
I can't describe his physical features
I can't minimize my man in a frame
I must have this baby
cuz POETRY is the father's name